Hey girl, do you know how much I loved you? Words that you say carry importance and weight, it is not some kind of language you used to communicate with me. We speak our language and only our language when we are together. I know it is hard to maintain this language but I believe over time it will be better and better. But I cannot seem to see this happening at all. I carry a very heavy responsibility here and it is to protect you, shower you with love and make you happy. Sometimes it is hard to do so but I never gave up trying although sometimes I really want to give up but I tell myself that tolerance is the key to every problems. I hate to use the past to cover up myself. I hate myself for this past. There are times when I told myself that things have to be done, but I cannot seem to do it because at the sight of you, my heart just melts for you. It had been just 3 months and I know it is tough. All the crying and breakdowns we both have it but after every breakdowns, I know I will never fail to make you smile again. Although I love to play around and be a fool but there is always a purpose behind. And it is to make you feel comfortable with me so that you can also be yourself easily. Whatever things that I do, you never slipped off my mind. I always think for you first before thinking for myself. I tried to put myself in your shoes and feel it but somehow I cannot. I am not any kind of friend to you, I am your beloved boyfriend. Friendship means co-operative and supportive behaviour between two or more people and this term means a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection and respect. Friends will come to your aid when you need help. Since I have the title ''Boyfriend'' I also have the ''friend'' word behind ''boy'' so I mean more than a friend. So I came into your life to complete your picture as well as make the picture we painted together come alive and always alive. I am in midst of completing it and it takes years and years. Sometimes time pass so slowly that you can grip on them and do more things but sometimes time passes so fast that we seem to forget about it. I am very emotionally attached to you my dear. No matter how far I am, I believe that you are always on my mind assuring me and supporting me. I love you. There are tons of people who came to me and asked me what is love? and all I can tell them is that ''You have to feel it yourself because I cannot feel what you are feeling at all.'' To me, Love is mutual trust, affection, respect, commitments and it produces a strong attraction towards someone, it gave strength and will. It is hard to express one's love to others because they cannot feel what you are feeling. The only way is to feel the same as a couple a pair of lovebirds. I love you my dear. There are tons of things I want to talk to you. I mean a stable and serious conversation about how you feel and how I feel. Because I loved you too much that is why I am doing all these. I hoped you can understand my desire my passion for you.

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