UNLEASE MYSELF D:
I always give people more and not thinking of myself at all. Sometimes I do not wanna give because I know the consequences of such things. Day by day, I felt fear in myself. Looking and walking towards a junctions of decisions in life. Always disappointed and yet so quiet. ''Welfare'' This word is dead in myself . I hate myself and I admire people. What happened to me exactly? I always ask myself this question. There is no answer to it because I am scared.
Music expresses me. High and low, low and High pitches. Ups and downs made me weaker. There is no one out there. Thinking of the future, I laughed to myself. ''You are that capable?'' '' Dream on man'' I am a perfectionist well, sorta. True self in front of people? There is nothing I can be proud of myself at all. There is nothing to show because it is actually quietness throughout the day. I had enough of being a '' fake''. But thinking how people viewed me as , I eventually have phobias. Talking about ''emo'' this word, its not logical. Everyone have feelings, when someone is down, you will expect that person to shoot his/her mouth off, saying things that is really stupid. But putting yourself in that person shoes, you will do the same because its the feelings that controls your mind but not your mind controlling your feelings. From young, I had not much attention. ''Freedom from family'' Its because I had them too much and this is what happened. Quarreling and debating. If everyone in this damn family of mine can give in, journey together won't be that rocky. I am tired and I wanna rest my head on my dearest and just sleep for a moment because I know she is the one. SHE is definitely the ONE. I am sure because I understand myself better than anyone does. Screw me if you want but I will not stop loving you.
TIRED
Labels: Augmenting love for you.
