Post for today. It shall be a formal one, I supposed. In my life, I always live without regrets because I am willing let the fate decides it all. I live a life without advices, without help, without comments and most importantly without restrictions. I am used to it already. I usually help myself in the ''dark'', I do not know the reason behind this. I just do not like it when people offered their benevolent help to me. Maybe I am just altruistic and do not allow people to care for me to an extent that I can feel the intense concern. The feelings is that pathetic when you find yourself in a position when someone can just start to criticize you in any way. That is why I like to do things in the dark so as to improve myself while absorbing useless content in people's comments. Time passing with haste and everything gradually start to improve, maybe? I have some doubts within myself. I am trying to clarify it. Should I say that I am too protective and sensitive? I supposed so. Maybe I should look at things at different angles and perspectives so as to understand the situation and try to adapt to it. I often express my feelings towards something by body languages. Mainly, it is because I wanted attention. It is like being a needle in chunks of hay. Attention is perhaps important to me maybe is because I will tend to think negatively when there is nobody around me to talk to me. What I meant by talking is chatting and not advising. I know what to do always is just that I do it differently from the majority is doing. I love constructive comments and not USELESS comments. I know where my limits are. I have absolutely the patience, just don't cross over the line and everything will be fine. Respect me and I will grant you with wisdom, treat me with malice and I will ignore you. I am not referring to anyone here. Don't get the misunderstanding. I am always neutral. Just that I am more to my girlfriend that is all. Oh, lets get over with the lengthy segment. Shall post on what I did today. Woke up at 08 45hrs and wash up and fix myself a hearty breakfast before turning on my computer to play some games due to my boredom. I slept kinda well last night. Maybe it is due to the sweet voice from my girlfriend which kept my heart beating non-stop. So, I played my way to 11 30hrs and I stopped due to the disconnection I had in the process of gaming. When I wanted to turn off my computer and get ready to bathe and go down for a haircut, my officer sent an instant message and asked me if I am going for the National Competition. Actually, frankly speaking. I wanted to turn it down due to the results I have been getting and I feel that it is gonna affect me in any way prior to my studies. On the other hand, if I go for this competition, my corp will be receiving a Silver award for Corp Achievement Award which might changed the impression of Dr Ong towards SJAB. So cannot get to decide whether it is wise to go or not to go. After talking to officer, I went to bathe and I went down to get a haircut. After that, came home and slack abit by listening to some music and wait for girlfriend to send me a message via cellphone to acknowledge whether is she awake or not and yes she is awake and I went to bathe again and get prepared for studying in Downtown East. Guess what? Downtown East are packed with people! and yes, managed to grab one of the best seats in Mac while waiting for my girlfriend and Dennis. Then studied all the way to 6pm in the evening. Went to Tampines first as my girlfriend wanted to get a haircut and when she is done, she complains that she look like a ''toot''. I was smiling to myself because in fact its really nice and ladylike. After that went to Tampines Mall as Dennis and my girlfriend wanted to get contact lenses. Then after that waited for Bus 81 and went to central. Dennis bid us farewell first as wifey bought her dinner and I escort her home safely. She kissed me farewell and after that I headed home. Wonderful and pleasant day indeed. That's for today. Got to go, wifey nagging at me.
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